Blue hands.

The exhibition prep is looming and with less than one teaching week left after the easter hols the pressure is on!

These last few weeks have been tough but everything is slowly starting to make sense. I have dyed and sewn my way through the month and im not stopping yet! Everything is go go go.

Im probably about half way through my final piece, its not perfect but hey.. some of the best ideas come from the worst mistakes...... dont they?

I managed to find time to actually relax yesterday, i did nothing all day and it felt good, im pretty exhausted!

Money is becoming tight and all i seem to do is buy things for my project, maybe i should sell some shoes?

I have a few sample pics to put up this time, i have had a some more ideas from looking at my work through a lense, it kinda makes you see it in many ways instead of just the one.

Ok thats enough for now i think, Jeremy is cooking up a storm tonight so i better get this sewing finished.

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Just playing with a few ideas..

Dyed fabric ready for the final piece

Inside a sample piece.

Tears and tantrums....

Well i have come to the conclusion that i am unstable, im happy, im sad, im excited, im fed up, im laughing, im crying... iys been an emotional day. I cant handle any more pressure i find myself flying off the handle in one way or another at the smallest things, whats going on? its like someone has stolen me and sent me somewhere to watch this alien creature control my body.... extreme i know but thats kinda how im feeling right now.

Anyway enough crazy talk.... My project...

Well after a very stressful day i seem to be onto something, it seems like its coming together, i now know which fabric and approx how much i will need and i know approx how much this is going to cost me..Carrie+organisation? nah.. i really mean it when i say 'approx' :)

A few things from this evening...

I like the tight pleats but the loose ones are great becuase i can trap things in between and they are still visible.... a work in prgress i know but i feel quite excited about the direction im going in.

Time for bed i think, woah its late!
sleep time
zzzzz

What have i done today?

....Nothing thats what! maybe i have creative block, or maybe im still stressed. Im having a negative and unproductive day.

I tried a few things this morning but im not sure what im heading towards, i keep feeling that im doing everything with no direction, i know i need to sample i just need some idea of a final goal to justify to myself why im doing things (that kinda makes sense to me even if i it doesnt to you)

My house is a bit of a state still and my work area is soooo overcrowded with mess, i took all my work downstairs and laid it out on the floor so i could look at it as a whole without all the chaos surrounding it. It hepled a bit because i found i few samples i forgot about, but im still no further ahead. Im definatly putting too much pressure on myself to come up with something fantastic for my degree show, think im just going to relax and try and enjoy it without worrying to much about my mark.

Its 24 time now i think, then a nice bath maybe

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carrie xxxxx

p.s heres a nice pic of when i was nice and warm and relaxed on the beach in San Deigo. Happy times :)

Afflecks palace

We had a fun if not slightly cold trip to Manchester today Me, Jeremy(my one and only) and Emma (my partner in crime) wanted to check out Afflecks, mainly to check out shop rental prices for when we graduate and attempt to conquer the business world! They are OK actually and im really excited as the manager seemed quite positive. Its been a stressful few weeks and it was nice to get excited again! all work and no play makes Carrie one stressed gal.

There are some really cool shops and some quirky people about we even saw Woodchip Boutique who have frequented our SU for the last few weeks, they were braving it outside on one of the stalls (wouldn't really fancy doing that on a day like today, i like the warm!).

I'm planning a full day of sampling tomorrow, why is it i always find a distraction from my degree work? its not like i don't want to do it.... hmmm.

Degree project!

My project is based on deconstruction, possibly because my house as almost been demolished and re built over the last year, but who knows how the mind works, all i know is that I'm obsessed with demolished or part demolished buildings at the moment, seeing the fabric of them on display along with he disarray of bent metal and rubble all around, for me its not about who lived there or what is was used for, I'm just fascinated by the visual image of what is left (wow this really helps put into words what I'm thinking)

...anyway, I'm very into my recycling at the moment doing my bit and all that! but giving all my plastic/glass/paper etc to the council to get rid of is one thing, I'm more interested in how i can use reclaimed materials (ie things that would usually end up in landfill) in my creative work. I think iv given myself a challenge as it does potentially limit me in some ways but i think its worth doing 'something rather than nothing' as i like to say!

i think this is all i can manage for now...my eyes hurt! ill put a few pictures up soon when i find some samples that are not too embarrassing for the world to see!
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Carrie x